randomness alert!

ok... this sucks! i was bout to press publish post when the freakin site had a problem so i immediately copied it. and now that im bout to post it, it's gone! geez!!!

im tired to write it all, all over again so just go on my twitter page --> if u like.

*sigh*

some thoughts..

loving GoCheeksGo's hilarious vids and Kevjumba's all for the charity JumbaFund vids on youtube. check them out!

..and GoCheeksGo is way better than Perez Hilton!

i noticed that i have a schoolmate who kinda looks like ...KevJumba. SWEET!

enjoying twitter more than ever.. it's like a telegram-like blog. easy! :)
oh and Adam Lmabert's on twitter now, too! @therealGlambert

enjoying Wednesdays in school. got a new haircut --> learning to love it.

and mad props to my childhood buddy/former classmate, James Nartatez on his SKILZ! check his video GRACE
for you to find out.

its past midnight already and i should be hitting the sack but im still wide awake! this is what i get when i go to sleep around 5pm. why the hell was i tired earlier? i didn't even do much in school..

saw him at the library this morning. *sigh* this is really really crazy!!! what's with this guy? i think i need to have my eyes checked.

oh well,15 more minutes and ....oops! i still can't sleep. forgot i have to finish my journal paper entry no.1 for my major subject. arrgghhh! maybe that's why i can't sleep.. not coz i was able to get some rest earlier but bcoz i haven't done my homework... *sigh*

this isn't good. should be up by 6am and its 12:22 already. 4-5 hours of sleep. good thing it's Friday!

anybody knows what mobile network is 0938?

ok ok... gotta stop blabbin and do some real work. that's if my brain's gonna cooperate.

PINOY AKO!!!

june 12, 2009
111th Anniversary of Philippine Independence


ako'y tubong Cotabato City sa Mindanao. parteng timog ng bansa. dun na lumaki at nagkamalay.
laki sa tatay na tagalog at nanay na maguindanaon pero nasanay ako sa salitang tagalog at katoliko ang relihiyong sinusunod ko.

hindi ako magaling sa history. isa iyon sa pinaka niyayamutan kong leksyon. mahina ako sa pag memorya. at hindi ako interesado sa mga tao. pero tuwing idinaraos ang kalayaan ng pilipinas, masaya at buong puso kong iwiniwagayway ang sarili kong gawa na watawat ng pilipinas.

pangarap kong makarating sa ibang bansa. pangarap kong ipasyal ang aking pamilya at makaranas lang man ng "snow". pangarap kong matulungan sila at isa sa mga tumatak sa isip ko e, ang mag trabaho sa ibang bansa. mag trabaho hanggang pwede ko na silang kunin lahat at dun na manirahan tulad ng iba kong mga kamag-anak.

pero habang tumatanda ako, bumago ang ibang pangarap na yon.

naghihirap ang pilipinas. d naman ata bago yun. mahina ang pag usbong ng ating ekonomiya. ilang taon na ang nag daan pero ang mga nakaupong opisyal ay ganun pa rin, naglolokohan, nanloloko at naloloko.

pangarap ko pa ring makarating sa ibang bansa. pangarap ko pa ring maipasyal ang aking pamilya. pero ang magtrabaho at manatili sa ibang bansa ay matagal ng nabura sa aking isipan.

kahit na mahirap ang buhay dito sa pilipinas, kahit na mahirap kumita ng malaking pera, desidido akong magsilbi sa aking bayang sinilangan. bayan ko muna bago ang iba. tawagin mo man akong martyr, wala akong pakialam. sa akin ang pilipinas. sa ATIN ang pilipinas. ipinaglaban ng mga ninuno natin ang bansang ito. wag nating pabayaan at iwanan. kelangan tayo nito. ipakita natin na may kabuluhan ang kanilang mga pinaghirapan.

dito na rin ako maninirahan. ang dami pang lugar na hindi ko nakikita. bahala nang walang snow. masarap namang manirahan sa isang tropikal na bansa tulad ng sa atin. ang daming lugar na nakapaligid na sobrang ganda. bat pa ba tayo maghahanap ng iba? suyurin kaya muna natin ang lahat ng sulok ng ating bansa at kilalanin ang ating kultura bago pumasyal sa iba? ipagmalaki natin kung anong meron tayo. tangkilikin natin ang sa atin.

reklamo tayo ng reklamo sa maling pagtrato sa atin ng mga dayuhan. pero tayo ba mismo may tamang pagtrato sa ating kapwa? tayo ba mismo may respeto sa kapwa pinoy natin?

pag sinabing pinoy, ang naiisip ng karamihan e, mga katulong. walang pinag aralan, mga bayaran. masakit mang isipin pero iyon ang katotohanan. kaya nga ang laki ng pasasalamat ko sa mga pinoy na patuloy na gumagawa ng positibong pangalan para sa ating bansa.


Nicole Scherzinger


Christine Gambito aka Happyslip


Lou Diamond Phillips


Manny "Pacman" Pacquaio


Monique Lhuillier

Brilliante Mendoza
Lea Salonga
tia carrere
Arnel Pineda (journey)
Charice Pempengco
rob schneider
mutya buena (sugababes)
pinoy all stars
cristeta comerford (chef on White House)
dante basco
apl de ap (black eyed peas)
vanessa minnilo
cassie ventura aka cassie
jocelyn enriquez
jasmine villegas
lalaine (lizzy mcguire)
cris judd
cher calvin
vanessa hudgens
rickey of rickey.org
shannyn sossamon
jasmine trias (american idol)

** check the rest of them on Pinoys making it BIG!

ilan lang sila sa masasabi kong proud ako. ang iba man sa kanila'y d 100% dugong pinoy pero sa puso't diwa e, pinoy na pinoy.

alam kong lumihis na ako sa tema. ni di rin naman ako sigurado kung ano ang tema ko. basta lang masaya akong pinoy ako. kahit ano pang sabihin ng iba, ipinagmamalaki kong PINOY ako!

sa tanong na malaya nga ba ang pilipinas...

sa totoo lang, hindi. nakatali pa rin ang ating mga kamay. sunod sunuran sa ibang bansa. pero ang alam ko, ang pagiging malaya ang nagsisimula sa ating sarili. kung paano? siguro sa munting mga bagay tulad ng pagtangkilik at pagsuporta sa kung ano man ang gawa at talentong pinoy. sa pagpapakita na hindi tayo basta basta at sa pagkaron ng tiwala sa ating sarili na kaya natin ito. na kaya nating itaguyod ang ating bansa na hindi nagiging tuta ng ibang bansa.

parang kung sino ako kung magsalita. alam ko yon. alam ko ring isa akong hipokrita sa pagsulat ng blog na ito dahil mismong ang blog na ito e, 98% english ang gamit ko. gustuhin ko mang mag tagalog sa tuwing susulat ako pero pano nga naman ako maiintindihan ng ibang tao?

simple things are what really matters

happy birthday to me!!!


22 years old. but still i don't look like one.
advantage: i look young which would totally work when i get older. no need to use anti-aging creams and stuff
disadvantage: some people don't take me seriously

anyway, i think this is the 2nd most quiet bday ive ever had.

i woke up and listened to Shinedown's Second Chance. Jenny was the 1st one to sing happy birthday. a really fun, kiddy-like bday song which made me laugh. Ate Lois arrived from work and she brought me food. YUM! we ate breakfast together and i was left alone after since she needs to rest. was watching Criminal Minds while still eating when my brother and sister-in-law arrived with more food! love love the mini cake.. looks so cute i don't want to eat it.. haha! kuya made spaghetti, his all-time fave and specialty. ate a little and they went to bed. again, i was left alone. went online for an hour to check my facebook and update my twitter. was so happy to receive bday greetings from a lot of people. most i don't really know personally. my phone won't stop beeping, too.

fell asleep while waiting for the package my family back home sent me. round 3:30, i got it. had a total laughtrip with the shirt i got from my dad. love it! love love the Victoria Secret perfume my stepmom gave me, too. went back to sleep after that.

round 6pm ate lois and i went out to buy additional food. 'twas crazy. we walked most of the time. i was thinking that it was near but joke's on me. boo! anyway, doing anything with ate lois is always fun so its all cool. (a lot of things happened. just 15 mins with her, i would need to make a single blog entry about it) ...

fast forward...

back to the apartment. all of us, my brother, his wife, jenny and ate lois had dinner together... shared stories. mostly about my nephew, Dylan and how kuya is to me when we were young. laughed out loud with my "Bella Swan" experience this past week.

chatted with my family back home. saw my nephews and dad and sister on cam. crazy crazy! i miss them a lot!!!

it was a quiet bday for me coz i was just home the whole day except when we bought additional food. i didn't see any of my friends. not even my HS buds.

it was quiet but really meaningful.

it was quiet but i had a lot of surprises! John West askin me bout my email (i know it sounds pathetic but i just go really crazy everytime i receive a msg from him on twitter. im feel like im the luckiest girl on the planet!), Roy's still the very first person to call me at midnight, the Kuno Becker (GOAL) poster from ate Rachelle (can't wait!), bunch of people i hardly know greeting me, the gift i received from my stepmom, the shirt my dad gave me (he still haven't forgotten the "pig") ...

it sounds so "mababaw" but simple things are what really makes me all giddy.

i recommend....

i recommend this movies:
MILK
THE DUCHESS
THE SECRET OF MOONACRE

i recommend this artists:

JOHN WEST --> seriously, this guy is AMAZING!!! he defines what an artist is. my all-time favorite!!! check him on myspace, youtube, facebook and follow him on twitter.
RYAN CALHOUN
SOUTH JORDAN
MAYAENI
SCARLET BALANGA
SETH JONES

i recommend this books
EVASION by CrimeInc.
IDOL EYES by Mandisa (American Idol 5)
DROWNING RUTH by Christina Schultz

tick-tock

i wanna stop talking too much.
i just want to shut up.
its not like i don't want to be heard because, i really do.
why do you think im blogging?and twittering? and facebooking? and myspacing? ..not to show off, ok. (Hi Te Lois! i feel your post.... ) ..and yes, i do have all accounts on those social networks.
i just wanna learn to be really quiet. but it's really hard for me.
there's just a lot of ideas and things i wanna share. im not selfish, u know.
when you talk a lot, most people don't take you seriously.
i don't want that to happen to me.
doesn't help that i look younger than my age, too.
but whatever! their loss, not mine. right?

i wanna be a pesco-vegetarian again.
i was a pesco-vegetarian for a couple of months but visiting my relatives and having an aunt who is so mean in the kitchen didn't help.
seeing Geneva Cruz

..and how much she enjoys her body (don't get me wrong, i LOVE my body) and how dedicated she is on animal rights, inspired me. (she's also awarded as the sexiest celebrity vegetarian in the world. beating natalie portman!)
yes, i am an animal lover but eating chicken and pigs and other animals doesn't mean im a hypocrite. its normal.
but thinking about it, i think im gonna follow Geneva's steps.
she's a vegetarian not because she's on a diet but because she loves animals.
im gonna be a pesco-vegetarian again not because i want to go on diet or because i love animals but because i can still remember the very light and healthy feeling of eating only veggies and fruits and meats of fish only.
i wanna be healthy NOW. i don't want to pay later.

speaking of animal rights...
i do read FHM and Maxim. what does it have to do with animal rights?
well, you see how many pretty ladies pose sexy and some even nude on those magazines, right?
i once told a family friend of ours that even if those magazines would pay a big amount of money for me to pose for them, i wouldn't. (lol! its not like i have a chance annyway. haha! lets just pretend, ok? sakyan nyo na lang tong entry na to.)
back to animal rights... PETA. they're known for having celebrities pose nude on their campaigns.
i told that family friend that even if PETA wouldn't pay me, i would still pose nude for them.
SHOUTOUT TO MY VERY MISSED PETS who are now guarding their fellow animals ---> BENZ, OCHO and MRS. BROWN (you dogs are the best!)

12:48am.june 9, 2009. a couple of hours left and im 22 years old. yea. that was random. i know. im just counting the last hours of my being 21 years old.

anyway, i still haven't seen The Curious Case of Benjamin Button. Dvd's gaining dust already. think im gonna pay attention to it now.

define

what is a friend?

this past months i've been struggling to define the word friend. i have lots of them, if you ask me. but these days, i don't really know if i do.

when im not seen hanging-out, when there's no word from me, most of those "friends" of mine disappeared, too. from the months of spending time with a lot of different people who claims that i have their backs was gone the instant i decided to just lay low, the moment i stopped posting pictures on my friendster account, the time i stopped posting bulletins, the day i decided to just stay at home, that's the time i haven't heard from most of them.

what is a friend?

i gained a few when i entered BED SPED.

i showed leadership skills, i aced my exams, gained teachers respect, having conversations with the "socialites/elites" in school, getting my way most of the time...

no one would think that im a shiftee. no one would think that im the new kid. classmates would ask for my opinion. classmates would love to have me in their groups. classmates would volunteer me in every presentation. everytime i talk, they would listen.

they would sit beside me. they would eat lunch with me. they would try to strike a conversation and even if i show them that im not interested, they would still push themselves. they would ask how am i like it really matters to them. they would ask what i like, what movie i saw lately, what book im reading at the moment, the music im listening to...

the next thing i know, there's a lot of mini "me" walking around. cheap version i would say.

next thing i know, some of them don't really pay much attention to me anymore. they don't talk to me as often. not until im seen doing something different or heard talking about something new.

what is a friend?

i don't know anymore. tell me what is a friend.
being surrounded by a lot of people, trying to be this and that for them, drained me. i thought i know what is a friend. but every definition i know got lost somewhere.

i don't even know if i am a friend to anyone anymore. how would i know? i can't even define the word friend.

they say immitation is the best form of flattery. ok. i won't argue with that. because im not all original anyway. but sometimes it gets irritating when people claim that its their idea. i don't know why im saying this. its out of topic. but whatever, im known for saying random things all the time!

GUILTY

yesterday was very tiring. went to school to enrol even if it's still not my schedule. i thought it doesn't really matter since they're not that strict. but, i had a really hard time. i lied my way through the whole enrolment system. and well, used my charm and connections. haha! its just that im sick and i want to finish everything as soon as possible so i won't think of anything anymore. i made sure i'll finish everything yesterday but when im bout to pay for my tuition, turns out the system in my campus is down so i don't really have any choice but to pay at main campus which i don't like because the line is unbelievable! ending? wasn't able to pay.

so earlier this morning i met up with my friends and fought with heat, noise, and stood in a very long line. a couple of hours later, we got a text from another friend who informed us that its ok to pay at south campus (my campus) already so we went there. i was so glad to see a very short line but only to find out, one transaction goes to 20-30mins! so again, we found ourseleves standing for so long. im getting tired by the minute and i know my friends and the other people are too.

anyway, i heard someone mentioned RCBC and then i realized we could pay through the bank! arrghhh!!! why haven't i thought about it before??? so as quickly as we can, we left school and went to BPI since it's nearer and within 30 minutes, we're done!

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for the enrolment yesterday, 'twas supposed to be for the 4th years and the scholars only but i was able to enrol. and i don't think i could've done that without my friends. Ana, for keeping me company.. Ana's friends, who was there to cheer us up. Rhine Caballero, my former classmate/ Mr. President of COEDSO. we're not that close but you were really nice to help me and Ana out. Jared Uy, Mr. Vice-President, we owe you one. the very reason why we were able to sit at ma'am Lou's chair coz u gave us VIP pass. woohoo!!! Cha, for the assistance and being so nice even if we were so "makulit" already.

USC College of Education Department's enrolment was ok but not that ok. it's not because of the teachers or the officers, coz all of them did their best to accommodate and entertain everyone. the flow was not that smooth but i believe it's the students fault for not listening and following instructions and i admit, IM GUILTY to this.

the whole thing yesterday made me think about running for the next COEDSO election. i don't know. i just feel like there's something i can do. oh well, little steps first. good grades - check! recognized by the teachers - almost check! show some leadership skills in class - almost check! what else? being present in every affair in school and volunteering - i can do that.

1st semester starts nextweek...