i went to Redemptorist Church this afternoon. my first wednesday mass there where Arthur isn't with me. feels different but i was happy. little boy infront of me kept just won't stop staring. smiled at him a lot and tried making faces but he never smiled. if arthur was there, he would find it funny, i think. an old man was sitted on my left side and a pretty lady on my right. idk why im telling you this.
i love what the priest asked during the mass... "what can you do to make the world more positive?"
- i know a smile can make someone's day brighter
- i know saying thank you or good day can make someone feel he or she is appreciated
- i know by saying sorry both parties would feel lighter and forgiving
- i know by loving someone, you're helping him/her be a better person
- i know that by doing small simple things to random people, can make the world a better place
- and i believe that these random people would do the same thing to other people because they feel good and positive and happy!
paying it forward.
if someone did something bad to you, do something good to that person in return. its hard but later on, you'll feel better. i mean, try doing something bad to that person and what do you get from it? nothing really. you'll just be a person full of hatred, someone who carries a heavy luggage and people will just hate on you.
you don't have to be saint. as i've mentioned earlier, SMALL SIMPLE THINGS.
- open the door for someone
- offer the babysit your younger sibling
- make a coffee for your parents
- clean your room
- help someone who's having a hard time carrying his or her stuff
- offer to tutor someone who's having a hard time in school
- feed a homeless person
- donate stuff you don't use anymore
- volunteer
- ( you fill in )
what are you doing still reading my post? GO AND DO SOMETHING NICE! lets all be happy making other people happy! ;)
"I can do everything through him who gives me strength." Phil 4:13
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Thursday, February 18, 2010
my PEOPLE OF THE YEAR 2009
this post is way overdue. i should've posted this like a month ago but i wasn't able to go online as much. anyway, this idea of posting my top 10 people of the year came from bianca gonzales. this is the 2nd time im going to do this and i decided to do it every year. it's a nice way of looking back and give appreciation to the people who've been really great and who have inspired me through my journey in 2009.
1. Ms. Norieter Ong - my SPED major teacher
twas last semester that i took up my very first major subject in SPED and im really thankful that i got into ma'am ong's class. she's everything that i want for a teacher. she may not be an education graduate but she has the heart and determination of a teacher. she has inspired me to do good in class and to always give my best shot in everything. i wish i can be like her when i start teaching.
2. john peter west - my ultimate fave male artist
i can't really remember who added who. all i can remember is that i got to know him on myspace. i listen to his songs whenever im online and i never get tired of it. the simplicity of his lyrics and melody is so catching. his voice makes you calm and happy and bouncy. its not just about talent with him. coz he also got the heart. he's really nice and friendly. i only know a few underground/independent artists who talk to other people and he's one of them. most would just message you to listen to their music and that’s it. i think one of the ultimate moments that made my year was during my birthday when I tweeted about wanting to have his album for my birthday and a couple of days later, i received an email containing his Summer album. how many artist do that? just John (oh, Stephen Vanderpool, too and the band BLVD). anyway, whenever im feeling down, i just listen to his music, and im all ok.
3. ana jean ebarsabal - my young older sister
i call her ana banana. i don't really know why. she's like my younger sister. we love doing a lot of things together. especially buying stuff and EATING! yep! she eats a lot too! she's always game for almost everything especially when its about buying clothes. she listens and you'll always see her by your side whenever you're down.
4. sharmaine diaz - the smallest in our group
she is just freakin nice i wanna shake her up and see her be mean! really! the time we started hanging out, i can't remember a single moment that she acted mean to me or did something bad. she's fun and always tries to be positive. that's what i love most about her. being positive. she's giggly so just imagine if we're together--> you'll hear nonstop giggles! She’s also very supportive to whatever I want to do. She may not know it, but I feel a sad whenever she’s not around.
5. lovely povadora - the laughing machine
i swear there's never a dull moment with this girl. even if she's tired, there's still a laughtrip moment with her. Her stupidity and clumsiness is always present. And that makes everyone in the group die with laughter. She’s also very sweet and nice. whenever you need help, she's there. whenever you feel like ranting, she'll willingly listen and is always ready to give you a "cheer me up" routine. she just takes your stress away.
*** i don't think i'll survive my first semesters in the COED if it weren't for Ana, Sharmaine and Lovely
6. mary louise alegria - my co in everything
chiclois! through eating and cooking, through blogging and tweeting, through music and movies, through clothes and whatever--> we're all in it together! ate lois reminds me of my ate. i can tell her everything, anytime without her judging me. i love how she gives me advice and how she would comfort me when im down and how she would laugh at my stupidity and end up doing something stupid, too. LOL
7. Ali Rafsanjani pikit – the silent noise-maker
we've known each other since elementary. we were schoolmates in high school but never really hanged-out. there are moments that we'd do things together, like dancing in school programs. i've always thought that he's quiet and picky with friends. but when we graduated from high school, idk what happened, we just kinda started talking. add up the fact that we both excel in school before but still doesn't have a college diploma until now (we're workin on it) so there’s always something that links us together. the past year, i've grown closer to him. we started hanging out and having fun. he listens to my rants, i listen to his heartaches. i love every chill time with Ali coz i can see myself in him. i just never thought we'd be this close. Too bad he’s leaving for Manila next month. Im really going to miss him!
8. Florante Pasco, Jr. – my strength
after 2 years, i was able to spend Christmas with him again back home. a month long vacation is just what i got when im almost about to give up from missing my family so much. papa never fails to boost up my confidence and challenge me to be my better self. papa's not perfect but he is one of the main reason why i am a fighter. i owe him that. he taught me to fight and to stand up even if my knees are wobbly, even if my heart is broken into pieces, even if my mind is tired. and up until now, even if he's getting weaker, he is still always there for me.
9. Shirley Pasco – my everything
even if she's on the other side already, she's still with me. i see her in my dreams, i see her through other people, i hear her in music, i can taste her cooking through my own experiments and kuya's on-the-spot cooking skills. i miss her so much that it always makes me cry. but i know someday, we'll be together again. laughing, eating, singing and dancing. i know she's just around, watching over me. walking with me and laughs with me whenever i do something really stupid and gives me an applause after for charming my way out of it. mama is my angel, my lucky charm, my protection. she is my refuge, my cornerstone. she is my life.
10. Arthur Antonio – my forever
it took him 2 years to notice me. i mean, really talk to me. i've always liked him eversince the night i saw him in his tita's class. but we were miles apart. he's in florida, im here in the philippines. so thinking of being his girlfriend never really occurred to me plus the fact that there's a bunch of pretty girls back in his hometown. but i guess God has his plans. We had a bunch of God jokes and I think it’s what brought us together and last September was the start of our 8888. Everything has been so cool and great since then. The first time I saw him again after 2 years, i was freakin nervous but i love how he was able to eliminate that just by spitting words, holding my hand and doing magic. This guy changed me in a lot of ways. Ways i never knew i could be. he made me do things i never knew i could. he made me accomplish things i never knew i could achieve. He gave me confidence. he made me love life even more! he is helping me be the best version of myself. i could go on and on about how great he is and how he rescued me from evil stuff but im gonna do that on a different post. he's already pretty famous here in my blog since I’ve been talking about him a lot.
*** Squeep, I know you’re reading this. THANK YOU for coming into my life. I don’t care if you were 2 years late. I have u now… 8888! ;)
*** SHOUTOUT TO: Ruel Dimatatac, Glady Rose Torrefranca, Robert Karash, Yvette Yzon, Sandie Garland, Stephen Vanderpool and Travis Isbell --> i just feel like giving you a shoutout! haha!
to you who's reading this, try to look back to your 2009 and remember the moments you had with the people that has helped you through your journey. and after that, try giving them a call or better yet, see them and say thank you and give them a hug without explaining why. You’ll be surprised on how much happiness it'll bring to them.
i may be 1 month late but whatever! Have a great year ahead! Spread the love and enjoy life!
1. Ms. Norieter Ong - my SPED major teacher
twas last semester that i took up my very first major subject in SPED and im really thankful that i got into ma'am ong's class. she's everything that i want for a teacher. she may not be an education graduate but she has the heart and determination of a teacher. she has inspired me to do good in class and to always give my best shot in everything. i wish i can be like her when i start teaching.
2. john peter west - my ultimate fave male artist
i can't really remember who added who. all i can remember is that i got to know him on myspace. i listen to his songs whenever im online and i never get tired of it. the simplicity of his lyrics and melody is so catching. his voice makes you calm and happy and bouncy. its not just about talent with him. coz he also got the heart. he's really nice and friendly. i only know a few underground/independent artists who talk to other people and he's one of them. most would just message you to listen to their music and that’s it. i think one of the ultimate moments that made my year was during my birthday when I tweeted about wanting to have his album for my birthday and a couple of days later, i received an email containing his Summer album. how many artist do that? just John (oh, Stephen Vanderpool, too and the band BLVD). anyway, whenever im feeling down, i just listen to his music, and im all ok.
3. ana jean ebarsabal - my young older sister
i call her ana banana. i don't really know why. she's like my younger sister. we love doing a lot of things together. especially buying stuff and EATING! yep! she eats a lot too! she's always game for almost everything especially when its about buying clothes. she listens and you'll always see her by your side whenever you're down.
4. sharmaine diaz - the smallest in our group
she is just freakin nice i wanna shake her up and see her be mean! really! the time we started hanging out, i can't remember a single moment that she acted mean to me or did something bad. she's fun and always tries to be positive. that's what i love most about her. being positive. she's giggly so just imagine if we're together--> you'll hear nonstop giggles! She’s also very supportive to whatever I want to do. She may not know it, but I feel a sad whenever she’s not around.
5. lovely povadora - the laughing machine
i swear there's never a dull moment with this girl. even if she's tired, there's still a laughtrip moment with her. Her stupidity and clumsiness is always present. And that makes everyone in the group die with laughter. She’s also very sweet and nice. whenever you need help, she's there. whenever you feel like ranting, she'll willingly listen and is always ready to give you a "cheer me up" routine. she just takes your stress away.
*** i don't think i'll survive my first semesters in the COED if it weren't for Ana, Sharmaine and Lovely
6. mary louise alegria - my co in everything
chiclois! through eating and cooking, through blogging and tweeting, through music and movies, through clothes and whatever--> we're all in it together! ate lois reminds me of my ate. i can tell her everything, anytime without her judging me. i love how she gives me advice and how she would comfort me when im down and how she would laugh at my stupidity and end up doing something stupid, too. LOL
7. Ali Rafsanjani pikit – the silent noise-maker
we've known each other since elementary. we were schoolmates in high school but never really hanged-out. there are moments that we'd do things together, like dancing in school programs. i've always thought that he's quiet and picky with friends. but when we graduated from high school, idk what happened, we just kinda started talking. add up the fact that we both excel in school before but still doesn't have a college diploma until now (we're workin on it) so there’s always something that links us together. the past year, i've grown closer to him. we started hanging out and having fun. he listens to my rants, i listen to his heartaches. i love every chill time with Ali coz i can see myself in him. i just never thought we'd be this close. Too bad he’s leaving for Manila next month. Im really going to miss him!
8. Florante Pasco, Jr. – my strength
after 2 years, i was able to spend Christmas with him again back home. a month long vacation is just what i got when im almost about to give up from missing my family so much. papa never fails to boost up my confidence and challenge me to be my better self. papa's not perfect but he is one of the main reason why i am a fighter. i owe him that. he taught me to fight and to stand up even if my knees are wobbly, even if my heart is broken into pieces, even if my mind is tired. and up until now, even if he's getting weaker, he is still always there for me.
9. Shirley Pasco – my everything
even if she's on the other side already, she's still with me. i see her in my dreams, i see her through other people, i hear her in music, i can taste her cooking through my own experiments and kuya's on-the-spot cooking skills. i miss her so much that it always makes me cry. but i know someday, we'll be together again. laughing, eating, singing and dancing. i know she's just around, watching over me. walking with me and laughs with me whenever i do something really stupid and gives me an applause after for charming my way out of it. mama is my angel, my lucky charm, my protection. she is my refuge, my cornerstone. she is my life.
10. Arthur Antonio – my forever
it took him 2 years to notice me. i mean, really talk to me. i've always liked him eversince the night i saw him in his tita's class. but we were miles apart. he's in florida, im here in the philippines. so thinking of being his girlfriend never really occurred to me plus the fact that there's a bunch of pretty girls back in his hometown. but i guess God has his plans. We had a bunch of God jokes and I think it’s what brought us together and last September was the start of our 8888. Everything has been so cool and great since then. The first time I saw him again after 2 years, i was freakin nervous but i love how he was able to eliminate that just by spitting words, holding my hand and doing magic. This guy changed me in a lot of ways. Ways i never knew i could be. he made me do things i never knew i could. he made me accomplish things i never knew i could achieve. He gave me confidence. he made me love life even more! he is helping me be the best version of myself. i could go on and on about how great he is and how he rescued me from evil stuff but im gonna do that on a different post. he's already pretty famous here in my blog since I’ve been talking about him a lot.
*** Squeep, I know you’re reading this. THANK YOU for coming into my life. I don’t care if you were 2 years late. I have u now… 8888! ;)
*** SHOUTOUT TO: Ruel Dimatatac, Glady Rose Torrefranca, Robert Karash, Yvette Yzon, Sandie Garland, Stephen Vanderpool and Travis Isbell --> i just feel like giving you a shoutout! haha!
to you who's reading this, try to look back to your 2009 and remember the moments you had with the people that has helped you through your journey. and after that, try giving them a call or better yet, see them and say thank you and give them a hug without explaining why. You’ll be surprised on how much happiness it'll bring to them.
i may be 1 month late but whatever! Have a great year ahead! Spread the love and enjoy life!
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
first day of him being away
the feeling is so weird. i woke up, checking my phone, looking for his text message. i go to school, thinking he's at the waiting area after my class. i walk to the jeepney stop thinking he's walking beside me. i sit in the jeepney, looking at my hands hoping he's holding it. and it's like that the whole time im walking to the apartment. as i open the gate and the door, i still look back hearing my own voice telling him to close it.
and when im inside, i stopped. where is he? tears fell down and i can't control myself. he usually turns on the fan and get some water and today, it was quiet. no footsteps, no laughs, no squeeks, no one hugging me unexpectedly, no one asking me if i want to take a nap, no one holding my hand, no one trying to feed me, no one stroking my hair, no one showering me kisses on the cheek, no one. i was alone and the feeling totally sucks. i wish he stayed. but i know he can't.
so i went upstairs to change and write some more on "the surfboard" and read a little of Stargirl. i was trying to remember what i used to do before when he's not here. sleep. so i did just that.
im guessing he's in Atlanta now. few more hours and he's back home in Florida. he was just here yesterday. and now, he's a million miles away. i miss him so much! but i can't wait to be ok. -sigh-
and when im inside, i stopped. where is he? tears fell down and i can't control myself. he usually turns on the fan and get some water and today, it was quiet. no footsteps, no laughs, no squeeks, no one hugging me unexpectedly, no one asking me if i want to take a nap, no one holding my hand, no one trying to feed me, no one stroking my hair, no one showering me kisses on the cheek, no one. i was alone and the feeling totally sucks. i wish he stayed. but i know he can't.
so i went upstairs to change and write some more on "the surfboard" and read a little of Stargirl. i was trying to remember what i used to do before when he's not here. sleep. so i did just that.
im guessing he's in Atlanta now. few more hours and he's back home in Florida. he was just here yesterday. and now, he's a million miles away. i miss him so much! but i can't wait to be ok. -sigh-
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