Its the 25th day of february and its wednesday. ash wednesday. if you don't know what that is, just google it up. as a catholic, im supposed to attend the mass but i wasn't able to. it's not like i've something else to finish. i just wanted to go home right away. it was weird because it's just when im out of the apartment that i feel alive. maybe i was missing the feeling of being dead after hours in school. and when i got home, it was diiferent! its as if my feet knows that its going to be a different day that it dragged me home. my brother was in a very happy mood (though he's always like that except on me), so i was surprised on the way he acted earlier. we chatted and joked around just like before. i even cooked my own recipe of tuna adobo for him and her wife. and he was so happy! there was no tension whatsoever.
i missed those kind of days with him. and eventhough my day was a blah in school, the 3 hours with my brother was all i need to ressurect myself from death.
This is the time where catholics are supposed to fast. But since i cannot afford to skip a meal these days (coz of the pressure in school), i decided to fast in some other way. i decided not to be mean to kids anymore. i mean, to the street kids. don't get me wrong, im a nice person. too nice i should say that some kids abuse it already. so it came to a point where i fight with them already. silly, i know. but sometimes they just get on your nerves! anyway, i just need to control myself and be more patient. i will only watch TV if American Idol is on. yep! i don't know what's with this season but im so glued to it! (oh, wait! i think its because of Anoop Desai ----HE SHOULD BE IN THE TOP 12! and danny gokey plus adam lambert, matt giraud, lil rounds ....) so that makes uhmmm... at least 2 hours during thursdays and fridays. no logging in on my personal friendster account (i also have a different account for the stuff i sell online). i always see to it that i check my account everyday! but starting tomorrow, if u want to send me a message or something, i have a facebook and myspace account. or better yet, email me! so, i guess the comments and friend requests and pic uploads will have to wait til April. no junkfoods and softdrinks. this is a bit easy for me since i don't drink softdrinks that much anyway and junkfoods? i can live without any of it. but of course, im gonna miss CHEEZY hot and spicy! hmp hmp! fish, veggies and fruits. no pork, beef and chicken meat for me. isn't it called pesco-vegetarian? one cup of rice each meal. this is HARD! i love rice! i could eat rice only and not complain. i love rice that sometimes i can consume the 2 and a half measurement that i cooked all by myself and still look for more after. so this one cup drama i think is the hardest for me. three complete meals everyday. that munching of foods in between meals is a no no. no more talking about the oh-so-noisy-always-fighting-always-shouting-with-loud-music-in-the-middle-of-the-night neighbors. its like they don't have any ....WAIT! ..im not supposed to talk about them anymore. finish a book before starting a new one. i get bored easily and so my bed kinda looks like a mini library already with books on my sides and magazines, too. i have this attitude of reading another book even if im not done with the previous one. like right now, i was reading True Grit by Deborah Meroff when i got hold of Paulo Coelho's The Zahir so just after 3 stories (i think) from True Grit, i started reading it. by the time i was on Ariadne's Thread, i ditched it over an entertainment magazine (lame!). and after that im already holding the New Moon of Stephenie Meyer (i know im so behind that's because i swore that im not gonna read this book but everyone's talking about it already that i feel so stupid to have no idea on what they're talking about plus if its getting good reviews, its worth it, right?).
i don't know if im really gonna be able to this. but the what are these sacrifices compared to what Jesus went through to save us?
As im typing, i can feel my stomach grumbling. im hungry! i don't like not feeding myself when my intestines are going crazy coz i can't concentrate. but, im done with my 3 meals for the day. and my eyes are betraying me. there's a lot of things i want to talk about and im planning to continue reading New Moon after this but my eyes are so not with me tonight. to my eyes: allow me to read one chapter and i promise, we'll go to rest right away after that. thank you!
I know that i said on my previous post that im going to share here my person of the month. there's only 2 more days left before february's out. and guess what? i still don't have my january and february people! i do have some people in mind but i only need 2 so im still going to think things over and see who really is my favorite person for january and february.
I ate dried fish this morning. and its sooo yummy! i thought my brother bought it but then i found out that SheeShee's Dad made it. plus the weather was a bit gloomy. i think the weather made it yummier. lol! seriously, most people say that its nicer to eat dried fish when the wheather's like that plus pair it with tomatoes and a hot chocolate or coffee... ooohhhh!!!!!!! i have to stop. this is making me more hungry.
i just love food! hahahaha!!!!
There's a new person i look up to when it comes fashion. i was watching E! earlier when i noticed how gorgeous selma blair is! she looks AWESOME in the dresses she wore, she look strong but she still exudes elegance. kinda like angellina jolie but in a lighter way. i don't know much bout selma blair so im gonna feed my brains tomorrow.
..well, i think im gonna go now. i still have 1 chapter to read. i don't want my eyes to be mad at me.
