"I can do everything through him who gives me strength." Phil 4:13

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

airport sickness

loud noise as engines growl
stop please i cant look at u now
tears well up my face
i don't want to go through this another phase
but im amazed!
on how we are
we've come this far
so lets just go and do this
for i don't know what i'm gonna do if i'll lose u tomorrow
checked in ur bags
everything's ready
you went back out for me
sat in a corner & watch the clocks
tick tock
here comes the tears that would be hard to stop
last call
give your kisses and goodbyes
hugs tight and make sure it'll last till morning light
fall in line,
show ur ticket,
then look back
im standing here waiting for another glance,
another touch,
another kiss,
come back home to me soon please
im sick of saying goodbyes
packing bags and standing in lines
FLY
i just wanna go with you
and not be here all alone anymore
travel the air with you
and experience everyday
without worries of being away
from each others arms
i miss you baby
i love you..
take away this sickness,
this blues
i wanna feel better and just
BE
WITH
YOU..


Monday, March 28, 2011

3 days to go

coz the guy i love is leaving soon.
and im not yet ready.
3 months they say was enough.
but when you're this in love, nothing is enough.
you just want to spend each waking moment with him.
im lucky. blessed. and for that i'm grateful!

like what my teacher said..
i should not count the days left.
but i should count the days when i'll see him again.
thing is i don't know when exactly.
FALL, i hope.





i miss him already.
i miss him sooo bad!
its crazy!

I LOVE YOU, Baby!

Saturday, March 26, 2011

not ready

im not ready. i don't think i'll ever be ready. he's leavin in 4 days and im not sure when will i see him again. i started my year with him. everyday of the past 3 months, i was always with him. im so used to waking up knowing i'll see him and im used to seeing him before i go to sleep. we eat together --breakfast, lunch dinner and all those in betweens. scout a new place to eat and just devour their food. go and just do everything together.. no matter how tired i am in school, the thought of seeing him after makes me all ok.

i've been here before and i always commit the same mistake. it is to forget about how i cope up with him being away. as soon as im back in his arms, i just forget about how i missed him so much while he was gone. or how freakin hard it was. now i have to relearn it again. try to remember the things i've been doing and how im doing it. *sigh*

i seriously don't want to go back to chatting with him online, and texting and calls.. i don't want it. i just want to stay beside him. i want to be near him.

i try not to cry whenever he is around. i don't want him to see me sad. because i know it's hard for him, too. i just want him to be happy. and im gonna do that. im gonna make his last 4 days here an amazing one. how? im not quite sure bout that yet.


PS: Squeep, come back as soon as u can, please....