weee!!! and they're back! *rejoice! rejoice!* *dancing and jumping and just celebrating* my LAKERS won against SPURS and is going to advance to the finals with the CELTICS, i hope..
oohhh... i can't wait! this one is going to be totally awesome!!!
"I can do everything through him who gives me strength." Phil 4:13
Friday, May 30, 2008
Thursday, May 29, 2008
drummer UN-luck
Just when i least expected it, BOOM! ..there he is infront of me.
I was walking with my twin cousins in the mall earlier when I saw a familiar face. My heart started to beat so fast and it feels like I couldn’t make another step. i know that face! ..the eyes, the smile, the goatee, the walk ..i know that! I KNOW HIM!
That was 2 years ago and I thought I’ll be just fine if ever we’ll see each other. But if you could only see me earlier, i look so stupid! i just blurted out his name and he stopped and just stared at me. I just smiled and he did, too. I almost fainted. ..it took us a couple of seconds to say hi. I know he was surprised to see me coz what he said doesn’t make sense. He asked me where I was studying though he already knows it and he just kept on saying my name. and he just kept on smiling and didn’t let go of my hand.
Past is past, I know. but if seeing him made me that way, how much more if I’ll see the guy who I was with a year ago? The guy I cried over, the guy who I’ve tried to forget that took me more than a year. I won’t say im over him coz I really don’t know. thinking bout it still brings tears to my eyes.
i should leave the past behind but HOW? Everytime, someone comes into my life, the past just pops in my head. The what-if’s just won’t leave my mind. So im left with a lot of issues. Trust, to be more specific.
I can’t wait for the time when im all ready to dive in all over again. Can’t wait for the time where I could just trust wholeheartedly and won’t worry and get scared and chicken out and leave a phrase instead of a sentence.
Anyway, guess I just have to take things really slow and try not to get really attached to someone…
PS: both of them are drummers. Lucky drummerboi is one of the best in their place and his band had performed as open acts for a lot of famous bands here in the Philippines. The other one, is my mentor in drums.
I was walking with my twin cousins in the mall earlier when I saw a familiar face. My heart started to beat so fast and it feels like I couldn’t make another step. i know that face! ..the eyes, the smile, the goatee, the walk ..i know that! I KNOW HIM!
2 years ago, he was mine. 2 years ago was the greatest days of my life. 2 years ago we were the “in” couple. Girls would hit on him infront of me but he ignores them and would do sweet things to me to piss the girls off. Guys would do the same to me but my eyes were totally fixed on him. I was just totally into him. We were the “ignore them coz I have you” couple. Sadly, we have to part ways. His hugs and kisses, his company, our moments, I’ll never ever forget.
We all have our ideal guy. People would always say that such ideal guy doesn’t exist. I was able to prove them wrong. My ideal guy exists. And that was HIM...
*that jacket with lotsa memries... *
My lucky drummerboi.. the one who made me really happy each day, the one who made me believe that there is such thing as luck, the one who pushed me to do my best, the one who never failed to believe in me, the one who trusted me no matter what, the one who was always there for me..
That was 2 years ago and I thought I’ll be just fine if ever we’ll see each other. But if you could only see me earlier, i look so stupid! i just blurted out his name and he stopped and just stared at me. I just smiled and he did, too. I almost fainted. ..it took us a couple of seconds to say hi. I know he was surprised to see me coz what he said doesn’t make sense. He asked me where I was studying though he already knows it and he just kept on saying my name. and he just kept on smiling and didn’t let go of my hand.
I’ve waited for so long to see him again, and when I did, I made a complete fool of myself. I acted like I was in a rush and just stared at him the whole time. I don’t even think I said anything to him except for the name of my school and bye. I was dumbfounded. I just grabbed my cousin and walked to the opposite direction as fast as I could.
Past is past, I know. but if seeing him made me that way, how much more if I’ll see the guy who I was with a year ago? The guy I cried over, the guy who I’ve tried to forget that took me more than a year. I won’t say im over him coz I really don’t know. thinking bout it still brings tears to my eyes.
i should leave the past behind but HOW? Everytime, someone comes into my life, the past just pops in my head. The what-if’s just won’t leave my mind. So im left with a lot of issues. Trust, to be more specific.
I can’t wait for the time when im all ready to dive in all over again. Can’t wait for the time where I could just trust wholeheartedly and won’t worry and get scared and chicken out and leave a phrase instead of a sentence.
Anyway, guess I just have to take things really slow and try not to get really attached to someone…
PS: both of them are drummers. Lucky drummerboi is one of the best in their place and his band had performed as open acts for a lot of famous bands here in the Philippines. The other one, is my mentor in drums.
0528
I had fun walking under the rain tonight. :)I might get sick again but, I don’t care-- at least at that moment. Nothing really happened today except that i had an OC series marathon with Ate tathlyn, bestfriend ni ate Delite [ate ni deisa]. She got hooked na rin. Haha! Yesterday naman, Deisa went back to the immersion thing and this time I won’t see her for almost 2 weeks. Back to oh-so-quiet moments in the apartment again..
Good thing I’ll be doing something tomorrow. Enrolment na for the 1st term. Im actually excited! School’s gonna start na in a couple of weeks and I’ll be busy again! Im such a DORK! But I love being a dork.. :)
Good thing I’ll be doing something tomorrow. Enrolment na for the 1st term. Im actually excited! School’s gonna start na in a couple of weeks and I’ll be busy again! Im such a DORK! But I love being a dork.. :)
0527
a few days ago, I was out with my bro and his gf, ate Shishi. Spent the whole day with shishi and her family. Kuya left early since he still has work. So me, shishi and her mom went around the mall. Her lil sister, Dj and her dad was too tired to join us so we left them in Pizza Hut. It was so nice spending time with them. They’re so much fun! Makes me miss the whole family thing. I had lunch and dinner with them. Dinner was different coz kuya’s not there anymore. Kinda awkward but Teddy “pooh bear” arrived a lil later. He’s Jenny’s [cattleya] bf. Jenny’s shishi’s other younger sister.
i was sick the day before and I wasn’t really feeling well that day but I still decided to go with them coz I don’t want to get stuck at home alone again. I guess ‘twas a good decision. Spending time with the soon-to-be in-laws. :)
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The other day, was so glad to see Deisa, my fake cousin.
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Still has no internet back in the apartment. So everynight I still have to go to the internet café I once hated. Yep! I hated it and the people running it. but I can’t do anything since it’s the nearest café from where I live.
Anyway, im loving them now. I try to be extra nice to them and really patient coz they tend to just stare at me whenever I asked or tell them something. I don’t know if they understand what im saying or they just wanna stare. WHATEVER! At least, they’re ok now.
i leave the place around 11 or 12 midnight. Sometimes past 12. my latest would be 1am. And everytime I go home, I just walk. Where I live is up in a hill. That’s why it’s called Buena Hills. But it’s not that far. I walk for just like 5 mins. And every night I do that, I LOVE IT! walking alone in the middle of the night can be really scary but there’s this peacefulness inside of me that overpowers that fear. Stars and the moon, LOVELY! walking alone in the middle of the street all by myself. Like literally alone. No other people, no cars.. and I always have this amazing feeling inside of me!
If my dad get to know about this, Im pretty sure he’s gonna get mad. He never wanted to see or hear that im out at night, alone. Im his precious lil baby girl if I might add. But then, I love breaking his rules. Not that I want him to get mad. I just wanna do the opposite. :)
Anyway, I guess im better off alone. “no man is an island”. I know. I still look for my family and friends but I’ve never been happier compared to the times when im alone. I don’t know. weird, you might say. But, that’s me. Well, the people I wanna be with are just, let’s say, too far.
Im blabbing. I know. im drinking right now. just a bottle. Why am I craving for alcohol?! i can’t be like this. I need something to do. Well, good thing enrolment’s tomorrow. That means 1st term for this school year is near. Something to do and get busy with.
Let’s go back to drinking… they say people who drinks don’t get white hair right away. Haha! I don’t know if that’s true. Shishi’s mom just told me that. If that’s the case then I guess I’ll have a jet black hair for a very long time.haha!
i was sick the day before and I wasn’t really feeling well that day but I still decided to go with them coz I don’t want to get stuck at home alone again. I guess ‘twas a good decision. Spending time with the soon-to-be in-laws. :)
ShiShi and my bro, Skeets
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The other day, was so glad to see Deisa, my fake cousin.
Fake coz she’s not really my cousin. Her sister is the ex gf of my real cousin. Haha! Anyway, we live in the same apartment and she’s been away for like a week. She had an immersion. Something she’s required to do for her nursing course. She woke me up and just talked and talked. I just listened to her since im still a bit groggy. And then next thing I know, I was in the bathroom taking a bath. I spent the whole day with her. Trying to catch up.. had brunch, went shopping with her, had our nails done and went home to get some rest. Then when we woke up a couple of hours later we decided to just go out again and shop some more. Actually, it was her who really shopped. I just bought this trench coat I found...was glad I accompanied her. Now I know a new, really cheap place to shop. :)
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Still has no internet back in the apartment. So everynight I still have to go to the internet café I once hated. Yep! I hated it and the people running it. but I can’t do anything since it’s the nearest café from where I live.
Anyway, im loving them now. I try to be extra nice to them and really patient coz they tend to just stare at me whenever I asked or tell them something. I don’t know if they understand what im saying or they just wanna stare. WHATEVER! At least, they’re ok now.
i leave the place around 11 or 12 midnight. Sometimes past 12. my latest would be 1am. And everytime I go home, I just walk. Where I live is up in a hill. That’s why it’s called Buena Hills. But it’s not that far. I walk for just like 5 mins. And every night I do that, I LOVE IT! walking alone in the middle of the night can be really scary but there’s this peacefulness inside of me that overpowers that fear. Stars and the moon, LOVELY! walking alone in the middle of the street all by myself. Like literally alone. No other people, no cars.. and I always have this amazing feeling inside of me!
*this pic is old though*
If my dad get to know about this, Im pretty sure he’s gonna get mad. He never wanted to see or hear that im out at night, alone. Im his precious lil baby girl if I might add. But then, I love breaking his rules. Not that I want him to get mad. I just wanna do the opposite. :)
Anyway, I guess im better off alone. “no man is an island”. I know. I still look for my family and friends but I’ve never been happier compared to the times when im alone. I don’t know. weird, you might say. But, that’s me. Well, the people I wanna be with are just, let’s say, too far.
Im blabbing. I know. im drinking right now. just a bottle. Why am I craving for alcohol?! i can’t be like this. I need something to do. Well, good thing enrolment’s tomorrow. That means 1st term for this school year is near. Something to do and get busy with.
Let’s go back to drinking… they say people who drinks don’t get white hair right away. Haha! I don’t know if that’s true. Shishi’s mom just told me that. If that’s the case then I guess I’ll have a jet black hair for a very long time.haha!
Monday, May 26, 2008
temptation!
--May 24, 2008
I just received a text message from a friend. He was inviting me to go with him and his friends sa Kawasan Fall tomorrow. They’ll be leaving this afternoon at 5 and spend the night at Argao. TEMPTATION!
I’ve mentioned from my previous post how much I want to explore Cebu. This is my chance! I’ve heard a lot of stories bout Kawasan Falls, seen pictures, too. I think it’s beautiful! But, I declined. Yes, I turned his invitation down. I don’t want to but I need to. [I need to save myself! Lol!]
Everything’s ok except for the person who invited me + his friends. It’s not that they’re not nice. Actually they’re beyond nice! I met them through one of my friends who happened to meet them in Boracay Island. So, what’s it with them?
They’re just too uhmm.. I don’t know.. carefree, I guess. Like they don’t care what’s gonna happen next or if they’ll hurt someone. I onced hanged-out with them and I had so much fun but it later scared me. Scared me in a sense that I might get in trouble or meet an accident. They’re like 8-9 years older than me but we were able to jam alright. It’s just that, they’re too much. Im just too young, I guess to do the things they do. Though I can do what they’re doing. I miss their company actually. Like what I’ve said, they’re so much fun and they treat me all like a princess! But, i just don’t like the person I am whenever im with them.
Heaven in hell. Something like that… that’s why im kinda avoiding him. I don’t know if the guy noticed but I’ve turned his invitation a lot of times. He invited me to party, have lunch and dinner, tried to pick me up in school, go malling, and watch a movie. Even his bands gigs I didn’t watched! I feel bad. But good at the same time. coz I was able to get away from the things I know I want but won’t do me any good.
Oh, have I mentioned that the guy looks like the vocalist of the band, Kjwan/MTV VJ? Yes! He looks like Marc Abaya… HOTNESS!
MAY 24, 2008
I slept around 3:15 in the morning. It’s not that I can’t sleep. I just choose not to sleep. I was just watching Raise Your Voice. I know, Hilary Duff.. haha! I love the songs in the movie + Johnny Lewis was there so I consider it as OK.
Then I woke up when my bro arrived around 6am. Was really pissed coz he had played his songs ng malakas. E, I was trying to sleep.. but after a couple of songs, he turned it off din. Then he slept sa kabilang room. I woke up almost 10am na. this time coz I heard my bro left naman. I still wanna sleep but I don’t want to have another headache sa sobrang tulog and my eyes won’t look good nanaman.
I don’t know if I’ll be glad coz I have the whole apartment all by myself. Or I’ll be sad coz well, for the 5 straight days, im alone, again. Usually, during Saturdays I do the laundry while talking to my friends on-line. But since my internet provider is still busy being a bad provider, you can scratch the whole internet thing from the list. So, you might think im doin the laundry while writing this. NO, im not. Im just doin this and soundtrippin. Blasting the music for the my neighbors to hear. Haha!
I was planning to go out. Buy a dvd, mail something to a friend and buy something I could eat while watching movies. Or maybe spend the whole afternoon with a friend of mine. Or visit this place my friends suggested but im still not ready to go coz Im not familiar with the route [mahirap ng mawala] and I don’t think it’s a good idea for me to travel alone especially that I don’t know anything bout the place. So, that’s a no. Drink, maybe? Nah… that was me a couple of days ago. I wanna be my sober self again.
anyway, good thing my bro cooked something for me. His way of saying sorry for waking me up with his music. At least now, I won’t worry bout my lunch.
Ain’t the 1st time that im home alone. Ain’t the 1st Saturday that im home alone, too. Ain’t the 1st time that I woke up and no ones home. Ain’t the 1st time that I woke up knowing that no one’s home, too.
I should really get used to this kind of life. I enjoy being alone but im not saying I don’t want someone to be with me. I do. I just think that it’s easier this way. If you don’t think so, then your welcome to enlighten me.
1 year and counting...
---wrote this one last May 21, 2008, too.
My anniversary! Yep! ..i’ve been living here in Cebu for a year now. that also means that I haven’t gone home for a year, too. Anyway, I’ve lived in Tagbilaran City, Bohol and General Santos also but I never really thought that I’ll be able to stay here in Cebu for this long. It’s not that I have something against the place. I just never pictured myself. But hey! im ok here. I love my school and met some really nice friends. Downfall lang is the nearest beach is like 45 mins away. And im not talking bout a really nice one. Just a beach beach. Not like in Bohol, white sand, peaceful atmosphere, really nice and accommodating people.. a place where I could just relax and bum around in between classes.
Anyway, I haven’t really explored Cebu so this coming months, im gonna try my best to go around the city and neighboring cities/provinces. So if you know a place I could visit, let me know. I don’t care if it’s far or expensive or so cheap. I don’t care if it’s public or exclusive. Beaches… historical spots… plazas… as long as you think it’s worth seeing. Tell me, ok? Im not maarte. All I wanna do now is explore the place im living in..
So, thanks in advance!
confessions...
this following blah blah im gonna post are like a few days old already. wasn't able to post it coz well, don't ask. haha! and uhmm.. whatever i wrote that day might not apply today or tomorrow anymore.
--May 21, 2008
I have some confessions to make.
… I now only eat once a day. –seriously. My eating time is around 3-4pm.. then I go back to sleep or do some other things I can think of. Just trying my best not to burn down the apartment.
… been reading 2 books – THE ALEXANDRIA LINK by Steve Berry and KISSED THE GIRLS AND MADE THEM CRY by Lisa Bevere
… I don’t post lame “surveys” on Friendster anymore –congratulate me! I finally got over it.
… I don’t want to admit it but well, I miss talking to Steve Hass. –i guess this is what I get by listening to Cherry’s music, his former band. Anyway, I just hope the “CrazyHass” girls will stop bothering me
… most of my friends would say that im “kuripot”. That I would not spend much money even on things I really need. And if I could find something cheaper that’s what I would buy or if I could find a place that has cheap food, that’s where im gonna eat. Well, they’re wrong! At least that’s what I discovered. I SPLURGE!!! I received my 3rd pay last week and I still haven’t saved even a hundred!
… there’s a friend who asked me to forget about him. ---IM SORRY! But I can’t do that. I want to prove to you that im NOT just another “internet friend”. I may be busy with some other things but that doesn’t mean I don’t care anymore.
… I’m not sure if you’ve heard of Tila Tequila. She’s like the Madonna of Myspace.com. well, im not much a fan of hers but I was looking for new songs to download so I tried hers. Now, I can’t stop listening to her song, “Fuck Ya Man”! im having so much fun listening and singing it loud!
… i wanna play drums again! – I tried forgetting about it because of the memories it brings but what the heck! I just wanna do it again!
… im not much of a myspace whore anymore. Im missing it though. Haha! I met and made friends with some really nice and cool people there. Just like Steve, I miss talking to them.. Stephen Vanderpool, Mike Sylvia, Vesper, Kevin (meowmeow), Sammy (boldstar!).. and my hunnies ..Hunhun Sophie, Anne, Russ, Chevy, Jammy, January..
… I still procrastinate! You might think that since im not doing much these days then maybe I’ve accomplished a lot. Like clean my room, delete some people in my Myspace account, keep in touch with some friends, edit the photos my friends asked me to, blah blah… but, I haven’t! im just too lazy..
… im only on-line for like an hour or 2 these days. Thanks to my internet provider for not doing a very good job. Now im stuck in an internet café every night.
… I never really got serious of wanting to meet someone so bad. ..except for Kobe Bryant and Christina Aguilera, that is. But, there’s this one person who makes me want to get into a plane and just be with him 24/7! Im going crazy! Gggrrrrrrr……
… smoking is bad for your health. I know. but still, I SMOKE! this may come as a shocker for most of the people who knows me. ---Sorry.. Im just not the girl you used to know or should I say the girl you think I am. Close friends, relatives, don’t freak out! ..im not a chain smoker. I haven’t smoked for the past month now. Except for the 2 sticks I had a couple of nights ago.
… I DRINK! ..as if that’s new. Haha! I started drinking when I was 14. started with champagnes and wines [I even collected the bottles]. Then, the oh so famous Red Horse to Gilbey’s Gin.. to Tequila’s and Vodka’s.. I even tried Tanduay! Thanks to the BadBoys [ton-ton, Patrick, chelbert, and the other 2 guys ..forgot their name + RJ], i passed out. I swear im not gonna drink Tanduay again. My drinking habit stopped when I left Tagbilaran, Bohol a couple of years ago. Feels good being sober… anyway, that’s not my confession. Just felt like sharing it. What im trying to say here is I’ve been drinkin for the past couple of days.. been drinkin alone. Im not getting drunk or anything. Im just hella bored that I don’t wanna think of anything else. I know it’s stupid. I just wanna be stupid.
…everything I said here isn’t much of a big deal except maybe for the smoking and drinking part. I’ll be in total trouble if ever some of my family and relatives reads this. Then why did I posted this? Like what I’ve said, I wanna be stupid. What do I get for being stupid? I’ll let u know if I have the answer.
Friday, May 23, 2008
going GAGA over ....
CAM GIGANDET!!!!
... bad looking guy with a smile that makes me sooo weak! hahaha! seriously, he's just my type of guy. well, physically, i mean. i 1st saw him on THE OC series. but i never really paid any attention. but then, since im so bored back home, i started watching THE OC again and i fell in love on him all over again! ...the stare, the smile, the body.. ok. i should stop. i sound like a maniac already. hahaha!
..anyway, bout to put up some of his pics but well, stupid computer won't let me. grrr... so, i'll try to do it tomorrow.
..anyway, bout to put up some of his pics but well, stupid computer won't let me. grrr... so, i'll try to do it tomorrow.
really quick!
there's just a lot i wanna share now. i was actually excited to post my new entries but the computer im using now won't allow me to use USB. still have no internet connection in the apartment so i just write back home and transfer it whenever im here in the cafe. but well, postponed nanaman. grrr..
anyway..
this one is going to be quick..
.. DAVID COOK won! woohoo!!!
... i know this one is soooo old already but i haven't mentioned this in my previous blog and i was watching some videos bout him earlier. uhmm... KOBE BRYANT! hahaha! so glad that he has now an MVP award. :)
... i don't think i'll be going home this summer. i know. i know. i was excited but some things came up. bummer!
... i just realized that Brad Pitt is well, HOT. haha! i don't like him. i mean, he's not in my hot guys list. but while i was watching Interview with a Vampire last night that's when i realized it why most girls drool over him. saying this doesn't mean he's on my list now though. haha!
... CONGRATULATIONS Ronnel Flores and the rest of the guys for winning Dipolog's Pagsalabok Festivals' street dancing and best in choreography award. naks!!! :)
... pregnantville... hahaha! 2 of the closest girls in my life are well, pregnant.. :)
anyway..
this one is going to be quick..
.. DAVID COOK won! woohoo!!!
... i know this one is soooo old already but i haven't mentioned this in my previous blog and i was watching some videos bout him earlier. uhmm... KOBE BRYANT! hahaha! so glad that he has now an MVP award. :)
... i don't think i'll be going home this summer. i know. i know. i was excited but some things came up. bummer!
... i just realized that Brad Pitt is well, HOT. haha! i don't like him. i mean, he's not in my hot guys list. but while i was watching Interview with a Vampire last night that's when i realized it why most girls drool over him. saying this doesn't mean he's on my list now though. haha!
... CONGRATULATIONS Ronnel Flores and the rest of the guys for winning Dipolog's Pagsalabok Festivals' street dancing and best in choreography award. naks!!! :)
... pregnantville... hahaha! 2 of the closest girls in my life are well, pregnant.. :)
Friday, May 16, 2008
NO internet!!!!
it's been a week! arrrggghhh!!! i don't know what's up. internet back in our apartment is still fucked up! grrr..
well, at first it's like a good thing since it's finals week. i can concentrate more and finish my school work right away. but, i remembered, i had to tutor everynight and of course, HIM.
so i had to go to an internet cafe everynight and wait for my brother to pick me up. HASSLE!
i saw this south park video, a scene where they had no internet. they were all freaking out! i think it was retarded. REALLY RETARDED! like they're gonna die if there's no internet. haha!
oh well, now i think im retarded! hahah! because i feel like im dying lil by lil. i NEED INTERNET!!! seriously.. im an internet freak. its not like i don't have a life. its just that most of my friends are not here in Cebu. and i hardly but load for my cellphone so i depend on the internet to get in touch with them.
that explains why i haven't been posting much here. anyway, summer class just ended today, i might have more time since there's no more research thing i should finish.
and uhmmm... globelines! bring my internet back!
well, at first it's like a good thing since it's finals week. i can concentrate more and finish my school work right away. but, i remembered, i had to tutor everynight and of course, HIM.
so i had to go to an internet cafe everynight and wait for my brother to pick me up. HASSLE!
i saw this south park video, a scene where they had no internet. they were all freaking out! i think it was retarded. REALLY RETARDED! like they're gonna die if there's no internet. haha!
oh well, now i think im retarded! hahah! because i feel like im dying lil by lil. i NEED INTERNET!!! seriously.. im an internet freak. its not like i don't have a life. its just that most of my friends are not here in Cebu. and i hardly but load for my cellphone so i depend on the internet to get in touch with them.
that explains why i haven't been posting much here. anyway, summer class just ended today, i might have more time since there's no more research thing i should finish.
and uhmmm... globelines! bring my internet back!
Sunday, May 11, 2008
miss na jd tka!
i've been trying to write something here for the last 30 minutes.. but when i start on the second line, i erase everything right away...
guess all i want to say is...
guess all i want to say is...
I MISS YOU TERRIBLY!!!
Friday, May 9, 2008
1 more week!!!
.. and it's friday! i should be rejoicing, i know. no class.. but im not. 1 more week left, 1 more week of struggling to understand what my teacher's teaching us, 1 more week of hell.. well, not really. just in my ReEd 30 class which ironically is about God.
anyway, i still have 4 journals left to read [i finished one already, thank GOD!] + write a review on the 5 journals that was assigned to us + 1 more chapter on Social Psych to study on (that's if we can't finished it right away. if we do, that means an additional chapter) + at least 3 more sacraments for my ReEd 30 + STUDY fOR MY FINALS = TOTAL WRECK! all of those in just 1 week. not to mention i have to stay in school for 5 hours then another 1 hour for tutorial. i know it seems lil but there's just a lot to read! ..don't get me wrong, i love to read but all of those in 1 week?! arrghhh!!!
the thing that keeps me going though is the fact that i'll be going home after my finals! :) oohhh.... i can't wait! hahaha! ...it's not 100% yet but there's a high chances that i would. :)
a lot of things is bothering me now but im glad i still have reasons to smile.
can't wait to travel alone again!!!
anyway, i still have 4 journals left to read [i finished one already, thank GOD!] + write a review on the 5 journals that was assigned to us + 1 more chapter on Social Psych to study on (that's if we can't finished it right away. if we do, that means an additional chapter) + at least 3 more sacraments for my ReEd 30 + STUDY fOR MY FINALS = TOTAL WRECK! all of those in just 1 week. not to mention i have to stay in school for 5 hours then another 1 hour for tutorial. i know it seems lil but there's just a lot to read! ..don't get me wrong, i love to read but all of those in 1 week?! arrghhh!!!
the thing that keeps me going though is the fact that i'll be going home after my finals! :) oohhh.... i can't wait! hahaha! ...it's not 100% yet but there's a high chances that i would. :)
a lot of things is bothering me now but im glad i still have reasons to smile.
can't wait to travel alone again!!!
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HIM .. just HIM!
most of the time, i push people away. not because i don't want them in my life but because im just making sure that they would stick by me no matter what. im INSECURE! and i have grown to believe that people always leave.
all i want is for him to STAY.
i know i shouldn't think or act that way. coz what if one day that person will realize that he's already tired? or what if he'll find someone else?
lately, my life's been full of "i-don't-knows" ..maybe i do know, but im just being such a denial queen. right now, there are a couple of things i wanna share to anyone reading this...
1. i like someone
2. i LOVE that someone
3. i just wanna be with him
4. that someone ..i don't wanna lose
5. u may say that im STUPID, but i don't care anymore
why? why him? again, I DO NOT KNOW! u may say i just got attracted to him coz he always makes me smile, coz he's always there.. maybe you are right. it's just mere attraction.. but why do i feel like IT's him? am i being bias? why do i feel so sad whenever we don't get to talk? why do i feel so giddy whenever he calls? ..coz he's giving me attention? i don't think so.. there's a lot of guys here who wants to hang-out with me [not that im bragging] but i turned them all down.
gawd! he got me soooo bad! that im starting not to care what other people are saying. im starting to ignore whatever negative trait he has..
i should know, right? im a psychology major... but believe me... i don't
---
you're not talking to me right now. you said i crossed the line.. :(
IM SORRY!
you know i don't really mean it..
all i want is for him to STAY.
i know i shouldn't think or act that way. coz what if one day that person will realize that he's already tired? or what if he'll find someone else?
lately, my life's been full of "i-don't-knows" ..maybe i do know, but im just being such a denial queen. right now, there are a couple of things i wanna share to anyone reading this...
1. i like someone
2. i LOVE that someone
3. i just wanna be with him
4. that someone ..i don't wanna lose
5. u may say that im STUPID, but i don't care anymore
why? why him? again, I DO NOT KNOW! u may say i just got attracted to him coz he always makes me smile, coz he's always there.. maybe you are right. it's just mere attraction.. but why do i feel like IT's him? am i being bias? why do i feel so sad whenever we don't get to talk? why do i feel so giddy whenever he calls? ..coz he's giving me attention? i don't think so.. there's a lot of guys here who wants to hang-out with me [not that im bragging] but i turned them all down.
gawd! he got me soooo bad! that im starting not to care what other people are saying. im starting to ignore whatever negative trait he has..
i should know, right? im a psychology major... but believe me... i don't
---
you're not talking to me right now. you said i crossed the line.. :(
IM SORRY!
you know i don't really mean it..
Thursday, May 8, 2008
... DAVID COOK [he SHOULD WIN!]
i don't really watch American Idol. i think the only season na talagang pinanuod ko is, where Fantasia Barino won. and uhmm.. yung time nila bo bice and katherine mcphee.. im not addicted to it. i just love watching them perform and re-arranging the songs plus, Jasmine and Camille was there who are half pinays.. syempre, support din! ;)
anyway, season 7 is all around! ..at least that's what i get to hear and see. the 2 davids, jason, syesha, and brooke.. plus another pinay [Ramiele] who got booted off early in the show. She's really good! i like her better than Jasmine Trias. and the bloopers of Paula Abdul is all over yahoo..
someone i know told me to watch it. because of Ramiele.. i never did. though i checked out some of her performances on youtube.com. then a month later, i heard a new version of MC's "always be my baby". turns out it was a song performed by David Cook during their 6th week.
i loved it right away! his voice, the arrangement, the way he sang it... grrr... for me its a better version than MC's. haha!
last night i heard him sing Hungry Like the Wolf by Duran Duran and Baba O'Riley by The Who. im not familiar with the songs but i am familiar with the artisits. I don't know which version is better but one thing i know is that, HE SHOULD WIN! haha!
its down to 3. him, David Archuleta and Syesha Mercado. all of them are great! lil David is simply amazing! and so is Syesha though i find her so "arte". she reminds me of Rihanna by the way. the face i mean. not the voice.
nextweek, it's gonna be the contestant, judges and producer's choice. i wonder what David Cook will sing... finale's on May 20. im not even sure if i'll be able to see it.
anyway, season 7 is all around! ..at least that's what i get to hear and see. the 2 davids, jason, syesha, and brooke.. plus another pinay [Ramiele] who got booted off early in the show. She's really good! i like her better than Jasmine Trias. and the bloopers of Paula Abdul is all over yahoo..
someone i know told me to watch it. because of Ramiele.. i never did. though i checked out some of her performances on youtube.com. then a month later, i heard a new version of MC's "always be my baby". turns out it was a song performed by David Cook during their 6th week.
i loved it right away! his voice, the arrangement, the way he sang it... grrr... for me its a better version than MC's. haha!
last night i heard him sing Hungry Like the Wolf by Duran Duran and Baba O'Riley by The Who. im not familiar with the songs but i am familiar with the artisits. I don't know which version is better but one thing i know is that, HE SHOULD WIN! haha!
its down to 3. him, David Archuleta and Syesha Mercado. all of them are great! lil David is simply amazing! and so is Syesha though i find her so "arte". she reminds me of Rihanna by the way. the face i mean. not the voice.
nextweek, it's gonna be the contestant, judges and producer's choice. i wonder what David Cook will sing... finale's on May 20. im not even sure if i'll be able to see it.
GO DAVID COOK!!! :D
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
moments....
im happy! :)
..i just got home and its 3am already. i was out with my brother and his gf and my uncle who is more like our cousin coz he's young. he [my uncle] arrived the other day and we were supposed to have dinner together but he was busy. i was so excited to see him coz its been a year since we last hanged out and i truly miss his company. he's years older than me but i always feel comfortable with him.
so we rescheduled our dinner date and ate Salams and Chicken Garlic Supreme for dinner at Da Vinci's Pizza just a couple of hours ago..
it feels so good to have a relative around. talking about childhood memories, catching up with all the things that we missed about each other. plus the fact that im included on the "adult" conversation already. im not considered as the kid anymore.. woohoo! that's 1 step. haha! :) anyway, that just shows how much i miss home.
after the late dinner, we just hanged-out outside and ate Ruffles over a cup of tea and my Frap Crumble. plus more talks and camwhore moments! the pics i'll post soon..
anyway... im supposed to be sleeping now since i still have a 10:30 class later and i have to be up by 8am coz i still haven't finished our groups paper work. that means 5 hours of sleep. eek! i really need to teach myself on how to hate eyebags.. haha! oh well... nytynyt!!!
..i just got home and its 3am already. i was out with my brother and his gf and my uncle who is more like our cousin coz he's young. he [my uncle] arrived the other day and we were supposed to have dinner together but he was busy. i was so excited to see him coz its been a year since we last hanged out and i truly miss his company. he's years older than me but i always feel comfortable with him.
so we rescheduled our dinner date and ate Salams and Chicken Garlic Supreme for dinner at Da Vinci's Pizza just a couple of hours ago..
it feels so good to have a relative around. talking about childhood memories, catching up with all the things that we missed about each other. plus the fact that im included on the "adult" conversation already. im not considered as the kid anymore.. woohoo! that's 1 step. haha! :) anyway, that just shows how much i miss home.
after the late dinner, we just hanged-out outside and ate Ruffles over a cup of tea and my Frap Crumble. plus more talks and camwhore moments! the pics i'll post soon..
anyway... im supposed to be sleeping now since i still have a 10:30 class later and i have to be up by 8am coz i still haven't finished our groups paper work. that means 5 hours of sleep. eek! i really need to teach myself on how to hate eyebags.. haha! oh well... nytynyt!!!
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