first wave of ze quarter life crisis

and i thought i can escape the curse of the quarter life crisis. but no. as soon as i came back here in Cebu City, i was faced with a decision to make about where to apply for a job. my mind was pretty much fixed before i left my hometown but you know how things can change in a second. especially with me who just can't seem to make up my mind.

anyway, i was being my usual self by doubting my decisions and just saying yes to whatever the people around me is saying. as much as other people say that im oozing with confidence, they're wrong! im just pretty good in masking it. but yea, i was losing hope (that easy-- which is a great disappointment) and was just being lazy the whole day yesterday when i got a call from a friend asking if im not going to school. i said no at first but when my brother got home, i instantly called her and said im coming. and no, im not avoiding my brother. i just don't want him to see me laying around doing nothing (actually im doing gazillion things in my head) ... ok, i was avoiding him. but not really. whatever.

so when i met up with my friend, the initial plan was to get my school records in the other campus but it was too late already so i just dropped by the office of my college department to get a certificate from a congress i attended before. after that, we had snacks and talked about my friend's job. and without even thinking much i blurted out "give me your job"! see,she  already told the people in her work place that she's resigning and friday would be her last day. so im like, "i want it"! ..its perfect! i studied BEd SpEd and its about time i put that into good use. im not going to say anything about what i'll be doing yet. all i know is that im happy to be able to have this opportunity.

aside from that, a friend of mine who told me about this business thing that i actually wanted to venture on but was hesitant coz i don't have the moolah, opened its door for me again yesterday. so i said, YES! this is a kind of dive i don't normally do but what the heck! i saw some people in this business that are having good results so i'll take the risk. if it won't work out, ok, move on.

so there... just the firsts of this quarter life crisis. im actually enjoying it! i feel more like an adult. which reminds me that i should change some of the stuff in my closet and upgrade it to a more adult look. of course with a touch of fun and youth to go with it. i can never let go of the child in me..

loving life,
- A

An Open Letter: HAPPY FATHER's DAY PAPA!

Dear Papa,

How are you up there? How's Mama? Have you been cooking and eating and singing songs and dancing like crazy? Have you been watching movies? Did you see The Avengers? I like Hulk. And how he just threw Loki side to side. Have you seen the American Idol? You were rooting for Philip, right? But i know deep inside you like Jessica. Why, am I sure? Coz I kinda look like her! :D

How are things up there Pa? Is it pretty? As much as i want to see it, I still want to stay here and celebrate life. You know i'm getting married soon, right? With Arthur. He's a nice guy. Smart like you! Writes like crazy, loves to read and is in love with jazz just like you. He wanted to meet you and is sad that he wasn't able to.

It's going to be sad without you and Mama during my wedding. I would miss that father-daughter dance and you giving a speech. I would miss holding your hand while walking down the aisle and you giving my hand to Arthur. I would miss looking back at you and seeing you teary eyed but smiling. I would miss how we could pose crazily in front of the camera. But i know it'll still be ok. Coz you have taught me to surround myself with great people!

Did you see me walk during graduation? I didn't trip even if i was wearing those crazy heels Aye lent me. It was fun! But it would be more fun if you and Mama were there. I don't have any awards but i know you would be so happy to see my grades. It was almost a straight line because of the 1's. But of course, i still have a couple of 2's. And i'm sorry. But those were better than my old grades, right?

I made new friends. You would be happy to know that they are from different sides of the world. And no I didn't met them on-line. I met them in school. Students from Denmark who keeps in touch with me regularly and never fails to invite me to visit their place, my Chinese seatmate who helped me through my Math subject, my Korean friend who is so adorable and another Chinese Mom who i met during Christmas Eve!

I also had a tutorial job. I worked for a prominent family and taught their kids up until early summer. They were great! Such a lovely family. The little girl is so adorable!

I am home by the way. Sitting in your room now Ate and Kuya Sean's room. It's different but there's still some hints of you. I MISS YOU! Terribly! Especially now that I'm done with school and about to get married. I know you would've showered me with loads of words of wisdom and remind me of things that i shouldn't do.

I'm going back to Cebu tomorrow. Have you seen Seth? Kuya's baby. He is soooooo chubbylicious! You would've enjoyed playing with him!

I'm leaving the country soon. Thanks for helping us out with the papers and the approval. I'm just waiting for my interview and check-up schedule. Help me with that ha? Whisper to God that everything will just go smoothly and have a good response, please? Don't worry pa. I won't forget my roots. I will still speak Filipino and memorize the National Anthem. I will still listen to Filipino music and watch Filipino movies. I won't forget the values and importance of family and putting God in the center of everything. I will still come back for vacation of course. I'll be ok there. I promise.

Pa? Are you reading this now? I hope even if i haven't done much yet, you are still proud of me.

I LOVE YOU and I MISS YOU!

HAPPY FATHER's DAY!!!

Love,
Your bunso who will never stop longing for your goodnight kiss
Agnes

25th...

here are just some of the many birthday greetings that i got on facebook and twitter.. totally made me smile and feel blessed to have such great family and friends! even people i only met once who resides on the other side of the world, didn't forget and take a minute out of their day to hit the send button. THANK YOU! and how amazing is it to celebrate for 2 days? :D perks of having friends all over the world! SO BLESSED!

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PS: Asia Samson, ze poet from Miami, Florida posted a happy birthday on my wall.. simple pleasures in life!

LOVE. What is it for u?

WHAT IS LOVE?

i don't think there's a real definition of LOVE. each and everyone of us has it own definition. but there are times that we're not sure what really LOVE is. our mind changes every week, month... we say LOVE is when u wake up each morning thinking bout that one guy but changes your idea right away when you see that one guy with another girl (who happens to be just a friend)..

im turning 25 tomorrow. and im so blessed to say that i found THE LOVE i've been looking for. spending 33 months with him (to be continued..)

watch this short film from jubileeProject and let me know WHAT IS LOVE ..for you! <3

33 MONTHS & MORE!!!!!!

i LOVE u more than Anne Curtis!

Dear Rhian,

you have been one of my favorite girls on tv. me no care with all the Mo Twister scandal. ur not just a pretty face. ur a survivor. a talented survivor. a kick ass talented survivor. :DDD

- A

PS: i get kilig with u and KC M. <3

Seth

I miss you Sitoy! ...so much!

Yco's hiphop

When I saw my 10 year old nephew, Yco danced this afternoon, it brought me to tears. It's my first time to see him dance and it just made me so happy! I don't have the pictures yet. Will just share on my next post. Lotsa mini posts coming up so yep! Guess this will be more updated now.. ;)