kiss-per ...

i was getting good at not crying when i miss u. but last night, i cried again!

"stay here, just for a while"
you know i'll stay as long as i could.
"10 mins, 1 min, doesn't matter. i'll make it last a lifetime"
i want you to be my lifetime!
"don't go"
im not going anywhere. im staying with you.
"i wanna walk around the city with you and just be with you, like next to you"
i don't care what we do. i just want to be next to you
"everytime i touch a key on the keyboard is one kiss"
keep on typing... i LOVE YOU!

... i still have a hard time talking about anything else except him. when im not online, there's just a lot of ideas in my mind but the moment im infront of the laptop, everything just disappears. he's taking over my mind again. it's so hard but i love it at the same time. the crazy feeling! missing him so much! wanting to be with him! i can just sit for hours, think about him and not get bored. omg! this is just sooo amazing! that just the thought of losing him scares me so much and i just end up crying. i know, stupid for even thinking about it. and yes, im a crybaby.. but i'd rather cry for him than on some cheesy koreanovela that's taking over every channel on tv.