letter to myself (part 1)

dear agnes,

there's nothing to be scared of. remember the times when you're so lost and everyone seemed like nowhere to be found? remember when u alone found ur way home? when most of them turned their back on you, you were able to find the solution. whenever you're down, you cheered yourself up and it works! when everyone seemed to not understand, when you're too tired to tell what happened, you just go to your zone and you're all ok after awhile. whenever you want to scream and cry your heart out, you just listen to music and you're healed. even in your sleep, you get healed. remember the times when mama visited you, the next morning, it seemed like you were reborn.

there's nothing to be scared of. you are strong! you can't give up. you can't! everything happens for a reason. one step at a time. and soon you'll see. smile at your problems. you're good at that. i know its tiring to wear a mask but sometimes it helps. just be happy! find happiness in simple things. don't dwell too much on negative stuff. let it all go!

you're not alone. you just think you are.

fight! life's tough but show life that your tougher. but when the time comes that your energy is low, remember the MAN ABOVE. get nourishment from HIM. remember how your Mom faced every stone thrown her way. remember how her faith saved her. remember her smiles and laughs and jokes and how she was able to brush the negativity off her shoulders. remember her weapon. you can use her weapon, too. she showed you how.

please, please, don't give up. when you do, what'll happen to your family. they'll be truly sad. you don't want that, do you? you're not the only person in the world who has problems. you're not the only person who feels the weight of the world on them. you just need time. and you have that!

listen to your heart. think. reflect. breathe.

you're gonna get through this.

love,
yourself